In short.

I cannot understand:

• Duplicity
• Selfishness
• Outright dishonesty

I want to understand how it is possible for a person to be this way. Nothing about it makes sense. It’s just inhuman.

Time and time again I am shocked by it. I allow it to anger me. To frustrate me. To consume my thoughts.

I don’t want to deal with this. Is there a way to be zen about it? Is there a way to pray for grace to be immune to it?

The fact that I can continue to have emotions about it at all, that I want to change it, is the difference between us, I think.