May 13, 2011 § Leave a comment
Well, we’ve said goodbye and sent them on their way, and now we’re adjusting to our New Normal.
It’s a little bit easier and a little bit harder than we anticipated.
There are still moments that are punctuated by the reality of their extended absence, but for now, we are trying to focus on the silver lining of everything. It seems like it’s working.
We’re taking a minute, a concerted effort, to step back from everything and to reconnect. To finally, four months in, be newlyweds. We’re remembering what it’s like to spend time together where we just get to enjoy one another’s company and not be dealing with the drama du jour, what it’s like to have enough energy left at the end of the day to tell some secrets in bed, to be husband and wife, to remember what it’s like to like each other, and not to just be hanging on to one another, paddling like hell to stay afloat.
It’s beautiful and sad and perfect all at the same time. I’m actually getting to pour over my wedding pictures, to take in each detail, contemplate the day. I can’t believe how far away it seems, in such a short time, but I also can’t believe how beautiful it was. It was absolutely the right thing to do when we did it, absolutely the thing we needed to be able to weather this latest storm. Part of me wants to go back, to relive every moment and take it all in once again, but a bigger part of me is so glad I have those moments to revisit now, to give me hope and remind me how easily attainable that happiness is. Sure, it will be achieved differently this time, but we can do it, and it looks SO GOOD on us.