May 18, 2009 § 1 Comment
Things are finally right, finally going the way that they should. We’re finally going to be a family with his kids.
I can’t wrap my brain around it…what it all means, how great it all is. It’s over. It’s OVER. IT’S OVER.
We’re in a funny cloud of disbelief here. So happy but so scared to let it out in case it’s not real.
In 2 weeks they’ll be here. “This is your room. This is your bed. Here are your clothes. These are your toys.” No more hypothetical planning and hoping. It’s here and it’s real.
May 15, 2009 § 1 Comment
Friday is a day we thought would never come. And I’m not exaggerating.
This court date, this one where we have a modicum of certitude of the outcome, has been continued, postponed, and rescheduled since September of last year. We keep dragging our asses down there, and being sent back with a slightly more correct list of what has to be done, not unlike sending your dad to the store for tampons when you got your period for the first time and your mom was out of town.
And now we’re here. And this post I’ve been trying to write all week about the maelstrom of emotions I’ve been experiencing seems…silly. We’re here. I feel calm. I don’t know what it all means, but I have hope today.